Commitment to self

Good morning wherever you are. Today in the world of farm life for us it is windy, warm and wonderful. The wind isn’t so good for harvest but also not too bad either. The warmth is great, meaning we can get harvesting early and wonderful……well it’s not it just always wonderful to be alive?

Today is a day for questions for me and the biggest one I have, which I have over and over again is…….’Why do I regularly put others first?’ It certainly doesn’t serve me and when I don’t commit to myself it throws a real spanner in my life. Recently I had not been meditating as much or writing , I wanted to and then something else would come up or I would need to cook or the cleaner hadn’t cleaned properly so I needed to catch up on what she hadn’t done, or I needed to go to town, or do the bookwork, or or or….I kept finding excuses. I had forgotten how important it is for me to commit to me.

My meditation and writing is so important to my life because if I don’t keep those as a ritual in my everyday life, my life goes into haywire. After I wrote my harvest widow post the other day I started feeling unwell, in a big way, a past medical condition felt as though it was flaring and I didn’t want that and in that moment I realised what I did want, I wanted to be well. So I committed to me again. Daily meditation, and starting to write again, both on here and in my journal. And it has only been 1.5 days and my health has turned around. No more symptoms, no more doubt, no more sore back.

When I meditate I usually have wonderful experiences and receive all sorts of messages but I find that when I’ve not meditated for a little while I go through a process of recalibration of my vibration. It feels really weird saying it, but I literally feel my body under my skin vibrating and lifting. It is a wonderfully incredible feeling and I love it. It’s awesome to know that I am able to do this for myself and then I am able to get on with life in a better version of me.

So meditation done, and writing done. I am going to have a Squizzy I’ve at Hay House at a couple of online courses I have bought and not done and get started on one of those. It’s a course by Kyle Gray about Angels 😇. I am committing to me, I am regularly going to ask if I am looking after myself? I need to change this habit, I need to change this mindset of putting myself second. I deserve to be put first.

This is the magnificent sunset I had the privilege to witness last night. ❤️

I hope you have a magnificent day in your world, I know I’m going to have one in mine.

Chat soon

T x