A little more about me……part 1

Hey ho, how are you today?

I was thinking today about my posts here on my blog and also thinking that I seem to post about stuff, that don’t always really tell you to much about me, so i thought I’d share a little more about my physical self/life/experiences. On my about me page, it tells you a little about me, there is so much more to share. Here goes

So many things I think about sharing I end up thinking oh that’s just story and I don’t always want to take ownership for those and today I’m going to start sharing some of those, with the hope of letting you into my world a little more. Letting you know that I’m real and just like anyone else. My life is a roller coaster at times and then other times it’s smooth sailing, just like everyone’s.

About 5 years ago I started thinking about making changes in my/our lives. I had realised that the food we were eating and the products we had in our home were not the best for our health. So my health/wellness discovery and learning began. Over the next 2 years I had great success with being “on track”. I had lost about 10 kgs in weight, the majority of it being fluid, I was bloated, swollen and inflamed. I was physically feeling the best I had in a very long time. We were eating ALOT of vegetables, reduced dairy intake and gluten intake, reduced our meat intake, so all was blissful……NOT my mind and emotional health was in the gutter (big time) and I had no idea.

I started creating stories and I started feeling I wasn’t good enough, more so then I had EVER before. I had created a dependent relationship with my husband and I was looking for love outside of myself. I had stopped doing things for me and I was worried about what everyone else thought about me, what I did and if I was the perfect mother and wife.

This is when my life truly changed.

2 1/2 years ago I was diagnosed with Crohn’s Disease. This is when I started to get some of my “self” back. I went through the process of diagnosis and medication and within the first 3 months of diagnosis my doctor had told me I would be on medication for the rest of my life. I told him I wouldn’t be and I knew then and there that I had some work to do. I didn’t really know what I had to do, I just knew there was more to life then this. I knew this because I had been there before and I knew I could get back there.

I’m going to leave this here for now, and I’ll get back to you soon with the next step of my story, this is one that I’m trying to figure out how to write.

Chat soon

T x

Planting season

Hidy ho, how would you be today?

So, I’ve been missing in action on here for a bit, I’ve been integrating some changes in my life and experiencing them I guess would be the best way of describing it.

It’s been a really big couple of months for me and then the farm has been super busy too, it’s been planting time. So the hours have been crazy for my hubby and eldest daughter as well as all the workers we have on farm.

For me, I committed to a year long program with a beautiful lady named Katie O’Malley who is based in Bali. The course is called Intuitive Healing and we did our first module in March, so I have been integrating this and things have been building leading up to the second module which was just the other weekend. It has been an incredible journey so far….and we’re only half way through the year.

I am blessed for our planting time because we employ a family member to help out with meals, so I don’t cook for workers during this time and I do feel very blessed for this. This means I am able to get on with more of my office work for the farm and then I am also able to run around after our kids without any hassles as well as do things for me.

We have had an awesome guy named Ben Crosthwaite around on the farm this season taking some pictures, and they’re fantastic, I want to share some of them here for you to see some of what it’s like out in the paddock.

I was chatting with a friend the other day and she was talking about my blog, I admitted to her that I’ve not been on here feeling a bit guilty and she encouraged me to get back on, so I hope this is yet another beginning, and I do truly hope I get the hang of this as I come and go with life. I do tend to go into hibernation and then struggle to come out of it fully.

Thank you to all the new readers that have been here and new followers too, it amazes me that you’re around and visiting even though I’ve not been active and even when I have I don’t really feel as though what I do say has much importance. So thank you 🙏🏻

I will endeavour to be back soon, till then take care

Chat soon

T x

photo credits Jemma Kitto and Ben Crosthwaite

Today I give thanks

Howdy doody, how would you be today?

This is a quick post today, I was having a look in my little book called Opening Doors Within by Eileen Caddy and part of today’s (Nov 4th) page reads “Gratitude keeps the door wide open for more and more wonders to enter your life, so never, never fail to give thanks”.

As soon as I read this, I thought;

Today I give thanks to my teachers

To my everyone who surrounds me & all they come in contact with

For we are all teachers and we all help each other

We all teach each other……..small or large things

We are all teachers &

Today I give thanks to my teachers

They are many

Today as with any day is a great day to give thanks

Take care and enjoy life

Chat soon

T x

I am now officially ‘A Harvest Widow’

Howdy Doody, how are you today?

It is a beautiful day so far today, here in the Midwest of Western Australia.  It was a lovely warm 37 degrees Celsius yesterday, so it was a beautiful day for harvesting, not necessarily so nice to be outside in (oh boy the flies are disgusting too), but good for harvesting.

Now that harvest has started, life becomes quite a bit different.  My husband usually is off to work by 6.30 or 7am every day, then gets home around 8 or 9pm every day.  I may see him a couple of times during the day, to give him his lunch or a cold drink, but those moments are mostly filled with catching up on business work or he is on the phone organising trucks to cart our grain or talking to the truck drivers to see what our grain quality is like.  This is why I have titled this post Harvest Widow, it is the title we farmers wives give ourselves as we all experience something very similar & understand what each other is going through.  It is as though we don’t have family, but we still need to feed, cook, clean, wash etc for them.

So this leaves me home all by myself & this is a very interesting one in itself.  I do love the solitude, oh so much.  But harvest goes on for 8-9 weeks & it becomes a little (to say the least) testing on moods, attitudes and relationships.

When I was a kid I can remember not wanting to eat my dinner & everyone else finishing, I was a fussy eater & would really have a hard time eating some things, I can remember sitting at the table eating all by myself & I HATED IT!!!!!  So much so that I make a point of us sitting while our kids eat, even if they’re taking so much longer than what we want, we all sit there together & talk or play or whatever until everyone has finished eating.  So eating breakfast, lunch & dinner these last 2 days all by myself has been hard & has hit me hard today.  I’m a person contact person.

Right now, this morning I decided I need to put together a plan of what I’m going to do to change the way things are this year.  I haven’t come up with a decision , yet, but I will.  The reason I need to do this is because I feel lonely.  I am home cooking, doing the bookwork & many other things I want to do, but the human contact isn’t there & this is what I miss. I am off to a good start because tonight I am going to the movies with my older sister to see Bad Moms 2, which will be a great laugh.  I think I need to commit some time each time I go to town to have some direct contact with friends & family.  I’ll get my thinking & planning cap on.

Meanwhile here’s a couple of photos of harvest that my hubby & our eldest daughter have taken (she’s working with us on the farm this year)

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Here is one of our combines harvesting canola
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A closer view of the canola going into the machine
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This is a tractor & chaser bin.  Our daughter is driving one of these this year.  It collects the grain from the combine as it is harvesting
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Field bins, where the chaser bin empties into & the trucks collect from
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Loading the canola seeds into the truck to go to town for storing until we sell it

 

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& here is our beautiful daughter being a ballerina   Yes there is some fun had out in the paddock, it’s not all hard work

 

And what’s happening on the farmer’s wife side of things…….I’ve made dinner for my husband & daughter to eat while I’m out & I’ve popped 2 banana cakes plus a carrot cake in the oven for lunchboxes.  I”ll share those recipes with you in another post.

I hope you have a wonderful day (or evening) & we’ll

Chat soon

T x

 

 

You get what you focus on, so focus on what you want

Good morning.  Wherever you are in the world, I hope you are having a great day.

It’s Sunday here, so that means a day spent together as a family.  I think there’s going to be some much needed work done in the garden, which will be great.  But the best thing about it is that all 6 of us are going to be doing it together.  There will be some laughter, jokes, and just lots of good light hearted fun.

So I was on the good old FB this morning having a scroll through what everyone is sharing & something became clear to me.  Alot of farmers in Western Australia are feeling the pinch right now because of how dry it is.  It’s not a nice feeling being dry especially with crop in the ground or animals to feed.  But we need to be aware of what it is we are thinking.

In my very young life discovery journey, something that has come through oh so clear to me is that you attract what you think, you create your own reality & if you focus on it, it will happen.  So, we as farmers (& people in general) need to concentrate on what we do have, not what we don’t.

I know it’s hard to see sand blowing & the sky being dirty with our topsoils, or hearing the sheep or cows calling & unhappy with the conditions, but there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING we can do about the lack of rain.  All we can do is look at what we do have & make decisions based on that.

I know it sounds very cut & dry (no pun intended) & I know it seems harder than that in reality.  But the reality is that it isn’t harder than that.  We know as farmers what we need to do to keep those animals in good condition so you can sell them and cover costs & make a profit to keep going.  We know we need to wait a little longer for the plants to get strong before we can spray the next lot of weed control.  We just have to hold on  through this dry spell and have faith.

Have faith in knowing it will rain after this current dry spell.  Have faith & believe in the fact that we will grow food to feed people, not as many this year as past years, but we will still feed many.    If we concentrate on what we don’t have we will keep attracting what we don’t have.  We need to concentrate on what we do have, be grateful for that & work out how we can move forward with what we have.

Sometimes some big decisions need to be made to move forward & they are decisions we don’t like to have to make, but we have options and opportunities, we need to make the most of those. So, instead of focusing on the lack of rain lets focus on the fact that we have family we can spend time with, or we have the ability to make decisions,  we have a roof over our head, clothes for our back & food for our tummies.  Let’s focus on getting organised in the workshop, house, backyard etc, so when the rains do come, we can revel in the relief that simple act will create.

We need to keep moving forward because as soon as we stop moving forward, we start going backwards.  Today is a day for focusing on what we have,  family, love, clouds in the sky, happiness, optimism & opportunity.  Today we are moving forward in our garden, making a lovely little spot for us to sit around our firepit to tell some much needed stories to create memories for our kids to share with their kids to share with their kids & so on.

So have a great day, look forward & towards the positive.  Look at what you want so you can achieve it.

Chat soon

T x

I don’t know what to title this post

I’m a middle child of 3 girls.  Growing up I was always the odd one out and felt as though I didn’t belong.   I can remember being young and thinking about why I was so different to both of my sisters and mum and dad.  I never really questioned it out loud because life was just life and we just did what we did and we didn’t ask those questions.

I hung onto that thought of just going with the flow and not questioning things through my teenage years and into my adult life.  I think through that time I noticed that I was different and eventually came to accept it but I never really understood or celebrated it.  I wouldn’t say that I now do understand it, but what I am starting to do it celebrate my difference.

My difference is what makes me “me”.  No one else has ever been me, lived a day in my life or walked a step in my shoes.  There is no one else in the world like me and I am like no one else in the world either.  And this realisation and full acceptance of the statement has given me peace.  Peace in the knowledge that it is ok to be the person I feel I am meant to be.  Peace in the knowledge that it really doesn’t matter what people think of what I do or think or feel, that’s what makes me “me”.  Peace in reminding myself every day that what someone else thinks of me is none of my business.  Peace in knowing that I am here for a purpose, one which I’m still trying to find out, it will come 😁

I have juse started to do some personal development.  This is something I have not really put any value on in the past as I’ve just gone along with how life is and accepted things.  I was never taught (because the people I was around were never taught) that what I bring is what I bring.  I create my own reality and I can make my life whatever it is I want it to be.  This has been a HUGE discovery for me.

Now don’t get me wrong, my life has been a great one, if I hadn’t done the things I have in my past, I wouldn’t be the person I am today and I am now grateful for all of those experiences.  But to be 42 years old and realise I can do whatever it is that I want to do and make my life whatever it is I want to make it is something I am loving but also struggling with.  I mean, I’ve gone along with living life and now I am trying to learn how to love life and it’s a big change.  To notice the things around me, truly notice them and wonder about them, question them.

Recently I went to a retreat with the lovely Katie & Wendy .  It’s called a sheDance retreat.  I had some of the biggest discoveries in my life over this weekend.  I don’t really know where to start or what to say because it is so profound.

I can look at the sky now and see the blue that it is and know that is the colour it is meant to be, it is there for everyone to see and appreciate.  It is there for me to enjoy and marvel at.

I can see my 2 puppies and know that they come up to me for a pat because they love me and I can feel the love they give and it’s not just about what I can give them.

I can sit here on my verandah and know that because I love the person I am and I can accept the differences I have others will love me and accept those differences as well.  I am there person I was meant to be.

If I take the time to stop, listen and receive the messages my inner self is sending me I will follow through and do the things I am meant to do, because I have all the answers inside of me.  No one can fill the holes I feel I have on the inside. I can hold myself.  I have everything I need.  I am the person I have been waiting for.

I am oh so grateful to Katie and Wendy for holding the safe, sacred, beautiful space they did for myself and other women to go through and experience and discover for ourselves who we really are.  They are such loving, caring and giving women.  Sacred Women’s Work is something we have lost contact with in this world of busy and it’s women like these two that are bringing it back and the world will be forever grateful for this as they spread their words, knowledge and love far and wide.  🙏

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The beautiful Katie and Wendy doing what they are called to do, share the knowledge and love of Sacred Women’s Work

Chat soon

T x

Today is a day for being Grateful

As I sit here on the verandah contemplating all the things I haven’t done today, one thing does stick out in my mind that I have done and that is to be grateful. I sat at my table in my craft room and wrote a few lines of the things I am grateful for.

I have so many things to be grateful for I am overflowing with it all.  I feel oh so blessed to have the life I have and for having the opportunities and choices I do.

I married the man of my dreams. He honours me, respects me and lets me be the person I want to be. He gives me the space to learn the person he knows I can become and together we have been able to have 4 absolutely beautiful children. All this wouldn’t have been possible if it weren’t for my mum and dad and my husbands parents. So here’s a couple of pictures of some of  the people and things that I am oh so grateful for today.

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My awesome husband – Robby

 

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Robby & I on our way to America in January this year (2017)
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All of us – our awesome kids in the car on our way to Perth for our BIG holiday to America January this year (2017)

 

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Love this bunch – the kids making their life size Christmas Tree
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Henry & Banjo our puppies

 

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One of my chickens that lay the eggs we eat every day

There’s so much more I am grateful for. I can’t list them all here right now, but I think the next couple of posts are going to be “grateful related”.  I have been very lucky to have come into contact with some very special women lately & they have had a huge impact in my life, so I’ll share about what they do & how they inspire people.

Thanks for stopping by today.

Chat soon

T x